Yeah. No one could expect that, Matty. Ain't your fault. It's Rawlins'. The uh, the fighting you heard--I punched his fucking eye out, man. I've never lost control like that in my life. Russo had to keep me back.
[His head hangs at the suggestion because this is a precipice he's been teetering on for so long, too long. The life of war and the life Maria and the babies give him, the choice he always makes between them. He doesn't know how he'll give it up.
But he can always find out. After Rawlins' task team, after this--even the feeling war gives him isn't enough to carry on. He rubs the back of his head and nods, a little meekly.] Yeah. Maybe it's time. I don't know what I'm gonna do after this, you know. I could stay home, with the kids, let Maria work if she wants. Find something. I'm taken care of, for awhile.
Not having a war to fight--it's scary, Matty. I love my babies, my Maria. But they ain't... this.
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The uh, the fighting you heard--I punched his fucking eye out, man. I've never lost control like that in my life. Russo had to keep me back.
[His head hangs at the suggestion because this is a precipice he's been teetering on for so long, too long. The life of war and the life Maria and the babies give him, the choice he always makes between them. He doesn't know how he'll give it up.
But he can always find out. After Rawlins' task team, after this--even the feeling war gives him isn't enough to carry on. He rubs the back of his head and nods, a little meekly.] Yeah. Maybe it's time. I don't know what I'm gonna do after this, you know. I could stay home, with the kids, let Maria work if she wants. Find something. I'm taken care of, for awhile.
Not having a war to fight--it's scary, Matty. I love my babies, my Maria. But they ain't... this.